Inspired by the /now page movement. If I hadn't seen someone in a year, this is the page I'd send them.
Updated 4 Jan 2026 while listening to some Nujabes.
I'm training for a marathon now! After running the occasional park run for the last few years, I've decided to pick up the pace—and the mileage.
We did a practice half-marathon on new year's eve and it crippled me.
My target pace was between 5:55 and 5:35 which I kept for a solid 14km. After maybe 16km I started to really lose steam, things started to get really hard and eventually I was hitting the wall.
Then my right foot started to get sore, sore to the point that I had to slow to a walk, then a limp then a seat.
I caught my breath and ended up whiteknuckling the last two kilometres. I was sore for two days afterward.
I was a really good cellist back in highschool but it's been years since I played and I've regressed.
Although my skill has gone down, the joy I get out of it is unparalleled.
I've joined a hobby orchestra and I couldn't be happier about it.
My friend Marc recently said this and it's starting to make more sense now then ever. Life as in adventure, or Dr. Martha Beck's concept of Joy, or whatever it is in life that makes you feel alive.
In the same vain of "mood follows action" and "you have agency", there are some quotes which lose their pithiness and become very real and concrete after some meditation on them.
The existentialist realisation that there isn't anyone who is going to come along and save you from yourself is a sobering one, but a freeing one too.
"A goal without a plan is just a wish" as the saying goes. You can want things but you must pursue them. I struggle with this.
At some point I want to write about mimetic desires and this idea of just being yourself (instead of being hyper-aware/-sensitive of what other people expect from you). They're both things that I've been struggling with but I'm understanding more.
I'm still writing software. I'm still liking it, and I've gotten better at it.
After some time being a front end dev, I started filling the gap as a UX/UI designer until we hired a full time designer.
I've tried a bit of project management. This was very hard but it was also the time I grew the most in the org. I ended up going back to being an IC (Individual Contributor).
Now I'm doing more full-stack stuff. A lot of server-side stuff, a lot of queues. I'm architecting things and getting to know more IasC (Infrastructure as Code).
It feels good to be getting better at things.
Most recently, I've decided to start being more of a manager type deal. We'll see how this pans out but the work is very different.